Today i began thinking about life and whether I’m actually living life or just surviving. I’m the type of person who always says “I’ll travel when I have time…” “I’ll do it when i have money”, “I’ll start my business when I’ve finished school”, “I’ll be happy when I’m not stressed “, “I’ll start YouTube when I have my own apartment”, “I’ll buy the thing I want next month..” But never actually do. All these things I want or want to do in my life I put off and have an excuse….waiting for a better time. But the time is now…. so many opportunities I’ve missed because I thought “I’ll do it when i have time/not stressed/later etc”
Of course having goals and working towards goals or going to school or work ate important. Sometimes you need to do half fun work shifts or school assignments because it brings you closer to your ultimate goal. Sometimes you need to do certain work just to earn money so that later you can travel or start your own business or do other things you want to do but can’t do without money. The problem though is when you stop living and just start surging. Each day is just about surviving work or school until you can go to sleep. Each week is jistabout surviving until the weekend. Each school term or work is about surviving until summer or vacation. You just survive but don’t actually live. You turn into a sort of robot and forget to enjoy life, both the big and small things. You forget to appreciate the good times and the bad times that lead to learning experiences.
The thing about life is that a new day is not guaranteed. The only thing guaranteed in life is death and you don’t know when that could be… you could be hit by a car tomorrow or end up with an illness in 5 years time when you’ve planned to “begin living life”. Anything could happen and do you really want to think back on your life and think about all the missed opportunities or life you never really lived?
Of course you can’t just drop everything and travel just because you want to. Or to stop working or stop studying, somethings you need to do as a human in society. But maybe you can ask yourself if you should change job or school program? Maybe study or work in another country or city …. change what doesn’t make you happy.
But also begin appreciating the small things in life. Begin appreciating each day and making the best out of each day. Find what makes you happy and motivated in life and do more of that. You have one life to live and you don’t want to waste it!!!
I am going to focus more on the small things in life. Stop waiting for the weekend or summer or until I’m finished with school….. start to do youtube, start my own business, buy the new training clothes if I have money to spare after I’ve paid all the necessary bills and put away some saving money…. if theres money left, be ok with treating myself . … I mean sure it’s just 5 minutes of happiness but that doesn’t have to be a bad thing!!!
To appreciate today I decided to go to my favourite vegan store and going to make My own seitan today not to mention bought my favourite white chocolate and then walked through the city appreciating the city I live in and loving my life as it is!!!