At the moment i am trying to remind myself of the importance of mental rest and de stressing. Reminding myself to take pauses and not worry or plan my days too much – to have 1 or 2 days a week where i haven’t planned out my day exactly and instead take the day as it comes.
Friday and a free day from school, and i decided to turn it into a stress free – “No musts” – day.
I woke up without an alarm at 7am feeling rather refreshed and energetic! Got up, made coffee and went back into bed while i waited for my coffee and had some time to just scroll through social media with no pressure to get ready and leave the house at a certain time.
I wasn’t quite ready to leave the house and go to the gym when i had had breakfast and drank my coffee, so as i have the apartment to myself for the weekend i decided to make some sweet potato fries, fry some tofu, make hummus and even try making a pumpkin soup with the pumpkin (butternut squash?) i had at home. All the while listening to podcasts. I actually love when i have time to cook in the morning – not only is it bright outside so i actually see the food i am making but good light when i take photos as well!
Then when the cooking was done and everything was cleaned i headed to the gym and didn’t have to stress to the gym and stress home again. Despite having all the time i wanted, i kept it a short session before going home (stopping to buy bread on the way!).
Home to eat lunch, write some blog posts, rest and then an evening out with friends to celebrate a friend’s birthday!
I must admit, i feel slightly stressed and anxious over *not* doing any school work today or not being so *productive*… but i know that i need breaks and i can’t constantly be working. Most normal people can take whole days free from work/school work and not care, but it always makes me feel anxious… but i am trying to enjoy my day and afternoon without feeling like i need to study. The worst feeling is that i always think *i don’t have time* but i know i DO have time… it is just my anxious, worried, stressed mind that tries to tell me i don’t have enough time.
But my aim is to take atleast one day a week where i don’t do any form of work or school work and just relax, spend my day doing other things and eventually these days won’t give me anxiety – instead it will be the much needed mental break i need!
First step is to realise you have a problem and the second is to do something about it!