Hello and happy Friday everyone 🙂
I hope you have all had a great week! The past few days have just flown by for me and i have barely had any time to be infront of the computer. Which is infact very stressful when i need to both study and want to try to update my blog.
How has my past week been? Well the sun has began to shine and it is feeling alot like summer… which i love, but it also gives me some anxiety – which i plan to write more in a post this weekend. I have tried to be in the sun as much as i can inbetween work, lectures, studying and going to go to the gym.
Also have had a picnic in the park with my friends and we tried to plan summer activities we can do together. However as we all have jobs and our schedules are different, not sure how it will go…. last year we barely got to meet at all because our schedules were so different.
Work has begun and i have very mixed feelings towards it. I have always loved working and love working hard, but this year i just have lots of anxiety towards working. There is no energy or motivation to work… just wanting to pay my bills, but i feel this huge ball of anxiety and “i don’t want to, i don’t want to” repeating in my head before i begin working. Once i am there it is fine… well, somedays chaotic – but that’s how it is when you work in the service branch. But i am hoping this is the last summer i work in food stores because at the moment i am very tired of it and it is giving me so much anxiety…. and the anxiety is affecting my sleep which then means i am very tired and the anxiety just feels worse the next day. I am most likely just feeling this way because i am trying to find time for everything in my life – when it feels like i really don’t have the time. But once school is done, in 3 weeks time then it is just work to focus on and then 1 year left of studies.
I do love my life and feeling positive, happy and grateful. But i guess i am just a little more tired mentally than i thought i was and it is beginning to show itself now. So trying to take care of myself and give myself mental rest as much as possible as well as not stress over things i can’t control.
So there you have a little life update and the reason why this blog might be a little empty somedays… but i am going to try my best to schedule posts and have regular/daily posts 🙂